I choose me

"Some people feel the rain, others just get wet" -Bob Dylan.

I finally came to terms with the fact that I do not know what I truly want; yet. I know I want love at some point, I want to be loved also but deep down I don't want that right now. I keep looking for ways to fill up this void inside me, nothing seems to be working, it has only left me with a larger void and finally, I think I'm done.
I'm done selling myself short, I'm done being objectified, and I refuse to accept that men only ever want to get in my pants because chivalry is not dead. There's more to me than my appearance, I have so much more to offer and I can finally see that now.

Two years ago today, something interesting happened, it was a start of a new chapter in my life and I realized I've wasted so much time waiting for the perfect guy, the fairy tale romance I'm too afraid to openly say I desire. All these time, I've being waiting for it and I stopped living, I stopped being happy, I stopped being spontaneous and living in the moment. I've been trying to be someone I'm not and I'm tired of pretending in my own life. Yes, I am not the same person I was a few years ago but I have grown into a woman I'm starting to like now. I may still be broken, but someday I will be completely healed.

I'm not sure there's anyone out there for me, not sure my "Mr Right' exists and I'm done hoping and waiting for him, I'm done with the expectations and constantly getting disappointed.

I choose me today.
I choose to be happy.
I choose to move on!

And if I ever find the myth of "true love" someday, with that special someone, I hope it will be worth the wait; and if not, I know I lived!





....to every girl out there who's ever felt empty, and numb because they're single and most relationships end with hurt, choose you today, choose to be happy. We don't need a man to be happy or make us whole, we can be all we want to be, we just have to want it bad enough! So live in the moment, enjoy each beautiful day as it comes because you could never get it back.

xoxo