Let love in again?

It's been years since the break up but I cannot bring myself to date anyone yet.

Some would say it is because I am damaged; maybe that's true but I think I'm just terrified.

I'm so scared of letting go, being vulnerable again, letting someone in and giving someone the opportunity to ruin me by simply giving my heart away, it terrifies me.

I have loved once, it was painful the most part but I loved him anyway.

Would I find love again?

Do I still have the ability to open up my heart again and let love?

I don't know the answer to these questions I've been asking myself for years.

They say, once you love someone, you never stop loving them; perhaps it's because I still love you though all you brought was pain, I was completely in love with you.

No, I'm over you, it's the pain I still cling to

Would I get over this and let love in someday, take the risk of feeling pain again?

Again, I do not know the answer to yet another question I keep asking myself.

I keep building walls and pushing every guy that comes away because I do not want to give my heart away again. 

It came back in pieces the last time I did, and the time before, and the time before that. 

So you see, I've been burnt too many times to let myself be burnt again. 

It's too much of a risk.

Do I let love in again?