Again

Listening to music and thinking, it just crossed my mind out of nowhere...

Will I ever be enough?

Will someone look at me someday with all my flaws and see me as “perfect”?

Or will I be used again for a while and passed over for the better younger version again?

It haunts me…

It terrifies me...

I am happy and satisfied with where I am in my life currently , although not with the love department. I really don't want the past repeating itself again.

I let myself believe in the possibility of love again, to the wrong person, again!

So I’m back to where I started few months ago, heartbroken, again!

I long for the day I'll meet the right person so this journey of constant disappointments and heartaches could finally end.

Is it too much to want to find love and be loved in return?

I am hopeful that it will happen someday, until then, I will continue to live everyday like it's my last.

:)