Who will love me for me?

Who will love me for me? Not for what I am but for who I am...
I ask myself this all the time.
I have made several men the reason for my happiness, my joy and when they were gone, I was right back were I started, alone, miserable and broken.
Well, enough, enough of putting everyone's happiness first, enough of allowing myself to be the object of ridicule, enough sitting on the floor waiting for some prince in shining armor to come and rescue me. Enough of self loathing.
It's time I love myself, believe in myself, be strong and confident once again.

Yes, I might be single, it's not the end of the world. I want to be somebody, I want to be the next big thing, I want the world to hear my voice and I want to rule the world.
I've let words and actions of men determine my actions, determine my happiness but no more. I am a lioness and I will be great. I may be broken today but I will be whole tomorrow!



The dairy of the broken girl has come to an end as she has chosen to be a Strong Woman. The broken girl that started this blog has risen from the floor, after years of self pity, pain and anger and she is on a journey to become the great woman she always dreamed she would be.

Check out my new blog, Strong Woman staystrongwoman.blogspot.com

xoxo

Again

Listening to music and thinking, it just crossed my mind out of nowhere...

Will I ever be enough?

Will someone look at me someday with all my flaws and see me as “perfect”?

Or will I be used again for a while and passed over for the better younger version again?

It haunts me…

It terrifies me...

I am happy and satisfied with where I am in my life currently , although not with the love department. I really don't want the past repeating itself again.

I let myself believe in the possibility of love again, to the wrong person, again!

So I’m back to where I started few months ago, heartbroken, again!

I long for the day I'll meet the right person so this journey of constant disappointments and heartaches could finally end.

Is it too much to want to find love and be loved in return?

I am hopeful that it will happen someday, until then, I will continue to live everyday like it's my last.

:)